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May. 4th, 2011 10:04 pmI'm so freaking tired that I cannot even begin to describe it. My body aches, I'm pretty sure that I twisted my ankle in Helotes last weekend, and I can't focus on anything. I'm worn out. I haven't had a chance to get back any rest that I lost while on our Big Adventure. I cannot be half-arsed to do anything other than sit on the couch and struggle to stay awake. I don't do so well with that last thing on most nights, either. I end up falling asleep more often than not.
I HATE this. I hate having no energy and hurting and just wanting to curl up and sleep after a long work day. These ten hour bullshit shifts have been getting to me. Thankfully, I only have one more. Then on Monday, I start at my new store. It's going to be an entirely new set of challenges and headaches, but it's a change, and I'll only be working eight hours.
I do not like my job right now. I do not want to do it any more. I am grateful to have it. I am grateful that it provides a mostly livable wage and insurance. I despise my immediate supervisor. I despise having NOBODY to talk to. I really, really, REALLY hate being responsible for everything and yet believed to be incapable of DOING anything. I hate working with somebody who second-guesses every thing I do, who checks up on everything I do and cannot bear to relinquish even a grain of control over anything.
New job on Monday. Sort of new job anyway. I'm glad.
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I'm re-reading A GAME OF THRONES. It's amazing how easily I slid back into this world after so long. I read the first two almost back to back and then moved to Florida while reading the third one. It got lost in the shuffle though, and I haven't touched it since. After much debate I shelled out for the Kindle bundle (ouch) on the reasoning that I have bad wrists and if I need to pay extra for the ability to actually read the books then this is a cost that I must accept. I hated doing it though - the Kindle bundle was almost twice as much the paperback box set. But the physical copies of the books are unwieldy, thick things that are inconvenient to carry around and difficult for me to hold, especially when my hands and wrists start to hurt.
Anyway, the book is just as amazing and addictive as it was the first time I read it. I felt honest, actual joy when I was reunited with familiar characters and places. I'm not sorry to have a digital copy of this series. It's worth it.
I HATE this. I hate having no energy and hurting and just wanting to curl up and sleep after a long work day. These ten hour bullshit shifts have been getting to me. Thankfully, I only have one more. Then on Monday, I start at my new store. It's going to be an entirely new set of challenges and headaches, but it's a change, and I'll only be working eight hours.
I do not like my job right now. I do not want to do it any more. I am grateful to have it. I am grateful that it provides a mostly livable wage and insurance. I despise my immediate supervisor. I despise having NOBODY to talk to. I really, really, REALLY hate being responsible for everything and yet believed to be incapable of DOING anything. I hate working with somebody who second-guesses every thing I do, who checks up on everything I do and cannot bear to relinquish even a grain of control over anything.
New job on Monday. Sort of new job anyway. I'm glad.
__________
I'm re-reading A GAME OF THRONES. It's amazing how easily I slid back into this world after so long. I read the first two almost back to back and then moved to Florida while reading the third one. It got lost in the shuffle though, and I haven't touched it since. After much debate I shelled out for the Kindle bundle (ouch) on the reasoning that I have bad wrists and if I need to pay extra for the ability to actually read the books then this is a cost that I must accept. I hated doing it though - the Kindle bundle was almost twice as much the paperback box set. But the physical copies of the books are unwieldy, thick things that are inconvenient to carry around and difficult for me to hold, especially when my hands and wrists start to hurt.
Anyway, the book is just as amazing and addictive as it was the first time I read it. I felt honest, actual joy when I was reunited with familiar characters and places. I'm not sorry to have a digital copy of this series. It's worth it.
