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Epiphanies
Sep. 19th, 2010 01:29 pmI realized something today. Well. At 2am, so still technically today I guess. Anyway.
I cannot STAND to be left out of the loop on anything. Secrecy and sneakiness have sent my life into turmoil more times than I can count. As a result of that I cannot stand to be uninformed about certain things. Besides the obvious (nosing around about what the people in my life are doing, saying and everything else), I end up obsessing over certain things unless I've satisfied my curiosity. It's not everything or even most things. For example, I'm nowhere NEAR to being up to date on current events. Ditto movies. But let a book or a TV show slip by me and I am suddenly all upset and obsessive about checking in with whatever thing it is. It doesn't even have to be a certain book. It can be a genre that I feel that I am uneducated about. My recent fascination with romance novels is a product of this, I think. Fortunately, I got off relatively safely and didn't go on a spending spree, which is the usual response to my current obsession. Free Kindle downloads from Amazon helped a lot with this.
I try to tell myself that I don't care what the current fashions and trends are, and it's mostly true. I don't care much at all about what the current clothing trends are doing, for example (for the record, I hate most of it and detest going shopping for clothing these days...I find more to mock than enjoy). But when it comes to certain little entertainment trends, watch out.
Moving on.
Today I am trying something new: keeping a running log of the things that I've done to take good care of myself. The list so far!
1) get out of bed when I woke up instead of waiting for the alarm (which eliminates frustration at waking up too early and being unable to fall back asleep)
2) eat breakfast ... read while eating breakfast (something that I don't get to do often)
3) take the dog for a walk (exercise for both of us and a few minutes alone with some of my favorite music)
4) drink a large glass of cold water after exercising
5) make a cup of hot tea to brew and be ready for me after my shower (for historical purposes, I iced the tea after I got out of the shower)
6) take meds and vitamins, including an extra supplement for migraine prevention
Some things from last night (no official list): drink a cup of hot tea before bed, listen to music with my new headphones, read a few pages, write in my paper journal.
The bottom line is that I absolutely have to de-stress and re-learn how to relax and love myself. It has been a long time since I made it a point to take care of myself and I don't like the way that things have become. Stress is starting to affect my health again. Weight gain and headaches are the main issues. Sleep is also problematic these days.
So I'm trying hard to get my eating habits back on track (I was doing SO WELL when I was in Florida...fresh fruit, fish, very few sugary drinks, healthy carbs), exercise, force myself to take time to myself, read, and write. Write, write, write, write. Words and music have saved my life and my sanity time and time again. Especially words.
Sooo. I hope all of you have a sparkling Sunday and a good week.
I cannot STAND to be left out of the loop on anything. Secrecy and sneakiness have sent my life into turmoil more times than I can count. As a result of that I cannot stand to be uninformed about certain things. Besides the obvious (nosing around about what the people in my life are doing, saying and everything else), I end up obsessing over certain things unless I've satisfied my curiosity. It's not everything or even most things. For example, I'm nowhere NEAR to being up to date on current events. Ditto movies. But let a book or a TV show slip by me and I am suddenly all upset and obsessive about checking in with whatever thing it is. It doesn't even have to be a certain book. It can be a genre that I feel that I am uneducated about. My recent fascination with romance novels is a product of this, I think. Fortunately, I got off relatively safely and didn't go on a spending spree, which is the usual response to my current obsession. Free Kindle downloads from Amazon helped a lot with this.
I try to tell myself that I don't care what the current fashions and trends are, and it's mostly true. I don't care much at all about what the current clothing trends are doing, for example (for the record, I hate most of it and detest going shopping for clothing these days...I find more to mock than enjoy). But when it comes to certain little entertainment trends, watch out.
Moving on.
Today I am trying something new: keeping a running log of the things that I've done to take good care of myself. The list so far!
1) get out of bed when I woke up instead of waiting for the alarm (which eliminates frustration at waking up too early and being unable to fall back asleep)
2) eat breakfast ... read while eating breakfast (something that I don't get to do often)
3) take the dog for a walk (exercise for both of us and a few minutes alone with some of my favorite music)
4) drink a large glass of cold water after exercising
5) make a cup of hot tea to brew and be ready for me after my shower (for historical purposes, I iced the tea after I got out of the shower)
6) take meds and vitamins, including an extra supplement for migraine prevention
Some things from last night (no official list): drink a cup of hot tea before bed, listen to music with my new headphones, read a few pages, write in my paper journal.
The bottom line is that I absolutely have to de-stress and re-learn how to relax and love myself. It has been a long time since I made it a point to take care of myself and I don't like the way that things have become. Stress is starting to affect my health again. Weight gain and headaches are the main issues. Sleep is also problematic these days.
So I'm trying hard to get my eating habits back on track (I was doing SO WELL when I was in Florida...fresh fruit, fish, very few sugary drinks, healthy carbs), exercise, force myself to take time to myself, read, and write. Write, write, write, write. Words and music have saved my life and my sanity time and time again. Especially words.
Sooo. I hope all of you have a sparkling Sunday and a good week.
